I can’t drive because I have always been stressed I will “zone out” at the wrong moment.

(We think I may have a seizure disorder and am not really zoning out so much as literally shutting off, but more on that later)

But also because I have a weird over active startle reflex. I will startle at some if the weirdest things. Bangs and booms are fine yet plastic sliding in pastic is super startling. Sometimes, I will see someone, regoster they are there and even think “oh. So n so is coming inside” or the like…and the sound of the door moving or their shoe sliding over the threshold will make me jump like ive been tazered. Its really overwhelming for just a second and then I am fine again…

As you can imagine, this does not lend itself to driving safely.

But I still kinda wanna, even if just the idea gives me panic inducing levels of anxiety. So, I have decided to “learn” in the safest way I can…using my computer and driving games.

And you get to watch! Ain’t ya so excited?? (I say this only slightly sarcastically. People who do not understand how my brain responds to stimulus have been pushing for me to drive for decades. Should be fun to see their reaction to my trying.

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